MY 080508.
it sucked.
its not because i have an econs exam paper today. its not because i have to travel all the way to expo to sit in the same exam hall as a few thousand over students who are taking the same paper as me. its not because my nose was runny the whole entire 3hrs that i have to resort to asking the invigilator for toilet paper (bcos they have no tissue paper) to blow my nose.
no. its not that.
it is the day, when everything is over. the whole white tentage will be down (or is already down as of now). its the day for goodbyes, the final ones. its the day when fire looked so evil and nothing could stop the imminent sick factor of seeing someone you love turn to ashes.
everyone will be down to collect the remains tmr at mandai. everyone except two. i will be at expo again taking the stupid statistics1 exam. guillaume will be at his sch taking his compo paper too. everyone but the both of us will be there.
boy do i hate the education system. another reason why i dislike the current exam period.
some would be wondering why am i so hard-up over this. its not like i'm the only person who lost a grandfather. haha. i agree to that.
but its not as if they had a grandfather who sat with them in class throughout their whole nursery year, making him the oldest student any teacher has ever had present in class everyday.
its the heartache i can't tolerate. there isnt any visual left of his presence. photos arent quite enough.
and seeing the way the whole situation pains my grandmother makes it all worst.
gatherings would never be the same again. no more towkay sitting at the end of the table. no more old man sitting on his lazy-boy watching wrestling. no more him.
yes i am very bitter about it.
and i still blame those (useless) doctors. bloody retards. why study so hard for that certificate when your best is obviously not good enough.
in consolation, people tell us to take it easy and that death has to come inevitably.
and because of that, i blame God. he put us all on this earth and he takes us away after our purpose is done. we're just like his puppets. its as if he is playing Sims.
he better take care of my old man. and he better relieve my family of their sorrow and grief. he better work his magic to make it all better.
he better.
it sucked.
its not because i have an econs exam paper today. its not because i have to travel all the way to expo to sit in the same exam hall as a few thousand over students who are taking the same paper as me. its not because my nose was runny the whole entire 3hrs that i have to resort to asking the invigilator for toilet paper (bcos they have no tissue paper) to blow my nose.
no. its not that.
it is the day, when everything is over. the whole white tentage will be down (or is already down as of now). its the day for goodbyes, the final ones. its the day when fire looked so evil and nothing could stop the imminent sick factor of seeing someone you love turn to ashes.
everyone will be down to collect the remains tmr at mandai. everyone except two. i will be at expo again taking the stupid statistics1 exam. guillaume will be at his sch taking his compo paper too. everyone but the both of us will be there.
boy do i hate the education system. another reason why i dislike the current exam period.
some would be wondering why am i so hard-up over this. its not like i'm the only person who lost a grandfather. haha. i agree to that.
but its not as if they had a grandfather who sat with them in class throughout their whole nursery year, making him the oldest student any teacher has ever had present in class everyday.
its the heartache i can't tolerate. there isnt any visual left of his presence. photos arent quite enough.
and seeing the way the whole situation pains my grandmother makes it all worst.
gatherings would never be the same again. no more towkay sitting at the end of the table. no more old man sitting on his lazy-boy watching wrestling. no more him.
yes i am very bitter about it.
and i still blame those (useless) doctors. bloody retards. why study so hard for that certificate when your best is obviously not good enough.
in consolation, people tell us to take it easy and that death has to come inevitably.
and because of that, i blame God. he put us all on this earth and he takes us away after our purpose is done. we're just like his puppets. its as if he is playing Sims.
he better take care of my old man. and he better relieve my family of their sorrow and grief. he better work his magic to make it all better.
he better.
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